I was decidedly being a drama queen yesterday. Yesterday I ate sushi and appetizers and none of it was good for me. I didn't binge but I definitely overate. I'm finding it's a little bit of an art going form ignoring hunger and satiation cues for years and than learning when to stop eating. Then to be able to stop eating what you love when it's in front of you. Then to not think about where it is in the house and have it in the back of your head. I'm not making leaps with this, but I do feel I have taken some small steps.
It was New Years Eve last night. I drank. I ate. I was merry. I feel a little differently about the drop in weight and probable and eventual gain. I can't change if I gain weight from being sick and not eating and then getting better and eating.
What I can do is what I do. I can eat well. I can try and eat within my calories. I can go to the gym tomorrow. I can go to the gym every day until my weigh in next Saturday. I need to stop worrying about the things I cannot change and worry about what is within my power reasonably. I'm not going to starve myself to stay at this number. I'm going to do what I can. I'm going to get back there. I'm not going to stop. I'm not going to.
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