Saturday weigh-in

So overall this past week has been a pretty positive one. I ate fairly sensibly most of the days and worked out as soon as the gym was open and I was better. With that said I had a dramatic (for me) weight loss last Saturday so I weighed myself this Saturday and the numbers came out like this:

Previous weigh in: 240lbs.

Saturday the 7th of January weigh in: 241.8lbs.

Loss -/ Gain +: +1.8lbs

Goal for Saturday the 14th of January: 239.5

I could be upset if I wanted and honestly, I'm a smidgen disappointed. However with the weight I have lost in the past three weeks it comes out to over three pounds a week lost so I can't be devastated. Those are good numbers. So I'm taking it with a grain of salt and really focusing on this week.

However on Saturday I was walking around kind of discouraged and mopey. I caught myself. I have lost almost a hundred pounds so far, which is kind of amazing. In the face of that I need to remind myself, what can stop me? But more importantly what would I ever let stop me? Because nothing can stop me if I don't allow it. So really the only one that can stop me, discourage me or sabotage me is myself. I can't let something like this stop me. Especially when there will be much greater obstacles ahead. How could I give up, at all, when I'm so far into this journey? It might be an incredibly long way to the finish line, but I'm just too far into the race to doubt whether I should be here or not.

On another note, I sent away for a copy of my British mothers birth certificate and a copy of my parents marriage license. So getting my British passport I feel is coming a long quite well. When I get them I can send off for it (along with a lot of other documents and paperwork), so I feel good about that.

Also I have been setting myself allotted school work to do each day and I have been pretty much accomplishing that. Saturday when I worked I didn't do any but yesterday I did do some. It's a lot more than I was doing before and I feel way less stressed out. Do you ever let things go or avoid them because they seem insurmountable and then avoid them for that reason as well? Allow the stress to collect? I was thinking this can be true for me in many other ways besides school.

As for my weekly goal of 239.5lbs? I'm desperate for it. I honestly think that it's less than I weighed in grade seven. Sometimes it feels like I live weigh-in to weigh-in and sometimes it feels like I live more now than I ever did before.