All the little things

I talk sometimes about how my life revolves around the scale. I think for a lot of people this is the case. I think it's important however that we step back. Acknowledge that the scale is integral but think about all the accomplishments that the scale doesn't read.

Last night I was cleaning out my drawers and I tried on a nightie I hadn't tried on since around the late summer probably. It was too tight then. I remember it very clearly being too tight. The way it clung to my stomach. So I tried it on, and it was too big. I couldn't believe it.

We, people on a weight loss journey, I feel often for weeks at a time get caught up on a small group of numbers on the scale and all too rarely think about the small things. The things that have enriched our lives.

I'm active now. I went from being a sedentary person to wanting to push myself physically. Challenge myself. I'm learning to run, the thing I loathed doing before. I'm more honest with myself and others, because I'm less afraid to me. I'm more assertive. My confidence has morphed from false to legitimate and real. Even at this weight, I don't mind pictures being taken of me where I used to run from it (clearly not literally). I smile more. I like clothes shopping more. I like that I'm starting to not be able to buy from plus size clothing stores. I like that this process has given me the mental and physical tools to deal with stress in a much more healthy way. I like that my body can move. I like that I like to move now. And hey, I don't mind looking at myself on the way to the shower either.

At this point I absolutely cannot envision giving up the scale. It's important and I see why and with so much weight to go, it's necessary. With that said, take a minute people. Think about the things you couldn't do before but can do now. The things that you didn't like but do now. The the way your life and body have changed beyond a number. Give yourself a pat on the back.