And onward

Today was all about starting back up. You might think, why not January 1st? If your thinking that I can only assume it's because you did not ingest the amount of alcohol I did December 31st. Brava to you, the rest of us needed to regain fluids and attempt not to lose any more ; )

Also I have been really sick and therefore have been unable to go to the gym. Honestly, I'm still not a hundred percent but I am good enough I felt to hit the gym. It felt awesome to even go. I mean it didn't all day before knowing I was going to. Once I had come and gone though it did. It just makes me feel more positive and less anxious or mopey or anything negative like that.

I couldn't do a ton. I did about twenty five minutes on the elliptical, forty reclining situps and a little arm work. The doctor said I had to go easy today and honestly I completely agree. I was breathing in at the end of my twenty five minutes and my chest was hurting. Hopefully, I can go a little longer tomorrow and continue on that trend.

This last week of being sick and it being the holidays, I was happy for the holidays but I have felt overwhelmingly more anxious and stressed. It isn't all gone from going to the gym, but I can honestly say it significantly helped.

There are so many things besides weight loss that seem to be shelved because of it. Sometimes this isn't realistic but in my life most of the time it is. This can't continue, I know I need to find a way to better combine the two. Whether it's work harder or do a better job of managing my time. I feel like it's a strong combination of the two. Maybe setting mini goals for the day? Regardless, school needs to be a priority in the way it just hasn't been. I'm upgrading certain high school courses like Bio 12 and Chem 12 ect. I hate it, it's interesting but I hate learning this way. I'm all about being verbal, ingesting all my material through reading can be challenging. I have been majorly procrastinating. I'm hoping by writing this I will offer more accountability. I'm considering trying to take my approach to weight loss and using it for school. There is so much to do, it's overwhelming, much like my starting weight. So start, working a little everyday, being accountable to myself and trying to make myself proud.