2012 Goals

My 2012 goals are thus:

* Finish losing weight.

* Travel to Europe.

* Get my British citizenship.

* Finish my high school upgrading.

* Go bungee jumping.

* Work on flying anxiety.


Losing weight: This is a lifelong journey I started in February of 2011. I weighed 340lbs and I want to be at a goal weight of around 175. I have every faith the next 65lbs will be dramatically harder then the first 100lbs but I want it. I want it really bad. And I want to be there this year.

Get my British citizenship: My mother is British so whilst I am Canadian I am eligible to apply for dual citizenship and my British passport. For tons of reasons this would be exciting to have. The first step was harassing my mum into sending away for a copy of her lost birth certificate which is done. Now I wait two weeks until I can assume my role in the process.

Travel to Europe: I have dual Citizenship with England and half my family is there. Whilst I loathe flying because it's my worst fear, ironically I love to travel. I want to see so many things in Europe. I want to spend a lot of time In England to see if I would be interested in living there for a while. I want to go by myself. I want adventure. This is it. I have already started saving up for it and I'm already excited. I originally wanted to make this sort of a positive deadline for my weight loss. Lose all the weight by August something and take off. However, I didn't expect the extra skin issue. Because I have been so big my whole life I already have a lot of extra skin on my arms and sides and more I know to come. Do I really want to go to Europe like this? If I have the surgery I know I will need to have it takes two months to recover and will push me into winter which would be an unfortunate time to go. I have to think on this, but I really want it THIS year.

Finish my high school upgrading: I have done some college but to take the kind of degree I'm considering taking I need courses as prerequisites I have never taken. So I'm taking them, and dragging my but about it. In a big way. I want to accomplish this in 2012 and never see it again.

Bungee Jumping: It may sound a little silly, my brother got a gift certificate for Christmas and has no one to go with an I said I would go with him. This is something never in my life I would have considered actually going through with before. I'm less self conscious now and I feel like I have spent a lot of years in a lot of ways sitting on the sidelines. That isn't me anymore, this is part of that.

Flying Anxiety: It is so possible I am the worst person to fly with you have ever met. I used to be totally fine flying and now it's my worst fear. I know it's ridiculous but I can work myself into a panic attack just thinking about it. Actually 40,000 feet in the air? It's absurd. I'm a terror filled basket case of proportions not seen by many. I love to travel and see new places so I know I need to get over this. I'm not sure how, but I really want to make progress with this in 2012. After all, my flight to England will be ten hours.

Best hopes and good luck for all for a New Year, if your anything like me, your going to need them.