Point one Becky.

Yesterday was a really good day, but it really showed me something. It showed me that learning to stop eating when your full is a really long process and maybe it gets easier but maybe It doesn't stop. I know that isn't revolutionary but even in the beginning of my weight loss and really up until a couple months ago I was still overeating. I can't remember a time when I didn't finish what was on my plate if I found it appetizing. When losing weight I just have done my best to make my plate less full, but if ever I intentionally or unintentionally took too much food, I ate it. Not binge eating but still overeating.

I had a great eating day yesterday, two very appropriately sized nutritious meals and a fantastic workout. I did a great cardio session and a lower body workout and then when it came time for dinner my mum made paella. I think in cutting out a lot of processed foods from my diet I have learned to appreciate the taste of real food more. She made it with brown rice and it was delicious. Like stop and give her a round of applause delicious. So I tested it before we all ate dinner, about three times. Which is a bad habit but I could have gotten over that. Then I ate my meal and I was plenty full, not just not hungry, but full. Then when I went back into the kitchen I ate more 'bites'. I'm so bad for the 'bites' too. Like if I have four spoonfuls of something it doesn't have the calories as it would have if it had been on a plate. It's like I just smother the common sense Becky that is yelling 'it might be delicious but your full, so why eat?'. I ended up being mad at myself after such a good day.

This morning however, I had paella for breakfast (Hey, it really was delicious) but I didn't overeat. In fact I did something kind of sensational for me, I left food on the plate. I put it in the fridge and did something else. It's such a small thing but such a big thing for me. I feel like I won that battle, and that's all a war is composed of right?, a long series of battles? It isn't just the scale numbers that give me hope. I don't think it can be just that in something like this. It's the little things as well. Point one Becky.