So I weighed myself today. If this had been any other Saturday weigh in I would have been jumping for joy. As it stands I'm just staring at the scale like a a brownie sunday that says it's zero calories. That's not true. This is not true. I the gym goer, did not go to the gym at all for one whole week. Very unusual, as I mentioned I had tonsillitis, pretty savagely. I couldn't consume nearly as many calories as I usually do and one day none at all. So this is how it went.
Saturday 17th of December: 251.5
Saturday 31st of December: 240
Weight +/- : -11.5
It's impossible for me to enjoy this. I didn't earn this. I didn't work for it. I didn't sweat for it. But hey! I'm not a saint, I could probably......Definitely....definitely people, get over that. Except. Except I know it isn't going to stay the same. I know it isn't. It can't. I'm eating more calories now and on Monday when my gym reopens after New Years day I'm going to go. I'm going to gain it back. It's like being given ten thousand dollars and the, Oh wait, no no no, you don't get to keep that. That's a month's worth of work for me. About twenty to twenty four visits to the gym.
Thinking now, I probably shouldn't have weighed myself. I'm paranoid now and I want to keep it at that weight but I know I can't. It's kind of sad. I'm trying to promise myself I'll get back to this point soon, that I'll earn this weight and I won't gain it back. I know that's right, but it totally sucks. So now it's a waiting game for next Saturday and also a question of, how long will it take me to gain back the weight? Will I regain ALL 11.5 pounds of it? Will it mess with an accurate view of my real weight loss for a while? Do any of my workouts or healthy eating account for any of that weight loss? Was any of that weight dropped my doing?
Guess we'll see.
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